posted on Mar 7, 2026
The overwhelm has gotten worse recently. Life is just... So fucking noisy. My autistic brain already struggles to keep up with life, let alone without all the war, fascism and doom scrolling. I wrote about this last year, and I was onto something. Consumption is the core of this brain rot. But so is the stress from everything turning to shit, being unemployed and stuck in life... Which also makes it harder not to doom scroll, thus the cycle spirals out of control. But I've recently found out my patterns have changed.
posted on Nov 23, 2025
I've been thinking a lot about accessibility. The physical world is so inaccessible: lack of dropped curves, pedestrian hostile towns and cities, and heavy doors to multistory buildings with no lifts. Its built by abled, for abled people, forgetting we will become disabled at some point. The disabled among us? We're often exhausted by this inaccessible world, we lack the energy to leave the house. For myself, my disability isn't as physical, but I still find the outside world incredibly draining: unreliable transport, loud and brightly lit environments, crowded spaces and lack of of seating. Naturally, a lot of us are drawn into the digital world.
posted on Nov 12, 2025
I've been off work recently. I've had some pretty serious heart issues that my doctors think might be POTS. It'll take a while to get diagnosed. I'm coming out of my flare up now. But in the lead up to and peak of my flare up? I was in the midst of horrific burnout: impossible deadlines lead by a profit rabid CEO, a code base of 50k+ lines with crippling technical debt and no refactoring.
